Of course my first question to my doctor was if I could still run, due to the pregnancy. She told me that I could keep running, but (and this is a big one) I have to keep my heartrate below 140 bpm. Seriously? So, I said okay I can live with that. I can still run, no big deal. Mr. Jeep wanted to know for how long I could keep running. I think he was a little worried that the crazies that are usually kept away by my running would start creeping back into our lives, as was I. The doctor told me that I can keep running until it is no longer comfortable. GREAT! was the response from both of us. Great, until you actually get out there.
So the day after she gave me the go ahead, I headed out for my run. I set my Garmin up so that it would beep at me when I got above 140 bpm. I soon realized a few things on that run. One, I don't know my Garmin as well as I should. I won't bore you with all the technical details, but I didn't have the right thing set and it beeped at me the entire time I was on my run. I thought I was going to lose my f--ing mind. The other thing I realized is that I have to run really slow to keep my heartrate at 140 bpm or below. I really felt like people who were watching me thought this was the first time I ever ran. It took me about 10 minutes longer to do the route that I ran. I kept reminding myself that this is not just for me anymore and that I have to think of the other person inside of me and do what's best for him/her.
I haven't been running as much as I would like. I haven't been sleeping well and can't get up at 5 am to do my normal run. And by the time I get home from work, there's way too many other things to take care of and worry about. Plus, I've been exhausted. This week I have felt like I've gotten some of my energy back, a little. So my goal is to get back on track, or at least the track I should be on right now. It's very hard for a competitive person to change her thinking, but I'm trying.
(This is what I say over and over to myself)
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